Well, the next day came and with it the dread of having to perform my solo. Even though John had encouraged me I still felt majorly scared. When I went down to breakfast I started to feel really nervous. I was practically dying inside, asking myself why on earth I had said yes to performing a male solo. But then I thought, "No, I will overcome this fear!" So I went straight to our choir teacher and asked her to listen to my solo and tell me what she thought of it. I was still nervous singing it in front of her, but I thought that it was a good idea to tackle a little, scary thing before I took on the big one that afternoon. This worked out to be one of the best decisions I could have made because she sincerely encouraged me and said I had a really nice voice which meant a lot coming from a musical person like her.
After this practice I went into the music room to await my turn to perform. I became rather scared waiting there to sing and old fears began to creep in again. But thankfully I didn't have the time to be swallowed by my fears for my singing teacher had just walked in and I was called up to perform my vocal solo. I slowly made my way to the stage praying that nobody could see me trembling. I felt rigid and way out of place like a fish out of water when I introduced my song. I quickly closed my eyes as the music began and prayed again for God's strength. Then I opened my mouth and began to sing like I had never sung before. I forgot the audience and the judges and sang my song with all the emotion I had. My song was about the beauty and commitment of marriage and so it made some of the mothers in the audience cry. A friend had once jokingly told me that her greatest ambition in life was to make the audience cry, so I guess I must have done okay. I finished the song and felt so relieved to have done it. My sister Lydia came up to me and said, "Flip, I didn't know you could sing like that!" As you can imagine I felt pretty good. I had just overcome my greatest fear. Now that I look back on that day I wonder why singing in front of people scared me so much, I mean, now I kind of enjoy it. I never dreamed that something I was so scared of is now something I love to do. But, I guess that is what happens when people face their fears.
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